What goes up must come down

Sigh... Just when I though things are getting better, I had to go screw it all up. Took a chance and it snapped back. Mixed feelings. Too much feelings to be exact. What with exams going now, it is not helping at all.

Disappointed, stressed, confused. Thought it would end well after it happened... But she seems to regret it. I want something more than that. But will it ever happen? Will she ever give me a chance? People have been telling me to give her up for various reasons, and I keep thinking, maybe I should. But talk is cheap. I can't just stop loving and caring for someone.

If only I can turn back time. Stop all this from happening. Stop the kissing. Prevent her from meeting him. Or maybe even stopping myself from knowing her.... Is she worth all this pain? Is there even a prize at the end of all this?

Don't know what to do now. Fuck this.